Cries.

Ignore the subs. Listen.

Bah. Cliche..

This video is like Nickelback's Someday..

^___________^

Indon in English. ._. ;~; B.E.A.U tiful~

EH.

Today is what.. the 24th? OH yes, the 24th.
A Monday.
So here's the story..

Well, I woke up earlier than usual (around Subuh/Sunrise I suppose).
Shower, breakfast, blablabla.. the usual daily stuff. Boring.

AND.. I went to buy Credit. Then went back home and went outside AGAIN. I went back and forth to this house until I came across something.

A LITTLE SOMETHING. Which turned out to be a kitten. But.. DEAD. So you could supposedly imagine my shocked/dontknowwhattodo expression. .-.

At first I had wanted to take it (hence bury it) but it stinks. Not to comment or anything but I was scared. Trauma. So I went back home and talked to Rival (Krisse/Sandra/annoyinggirl). She told me to get it and bury it. And so I did. Took my Naruto-like glove and ran to the kitten.

As I was walking, I noticed that this 'guy' had been watching me. ._. Plus I had been in his sight for a while but I TRIED to ignore that fact.

But the hardest part is yet to come: Digging. I found no shovel I could've interpreted as a shovel so I just took this kinda thing i came across after tripping over a cat. (I took the kitten to a safe place before this happened so no worries. ^^)

I digged and digged..

















And digged...














Until I came to the knowledge that it was big enough for the kitten. I carried it carefully (its body was weak and I think its 'arm' was broken. ;~;)




Then the deeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppp trauma came along so I went for a 2 hour run. IT was.. exhausting and silly because I keep gettting mixed up and lost in the damned neighbourhood. x__x Shows that I dont go around the neighbourhood much, huh?


And just when..- Heh.
I'm sleepy.
Tell me that it's not 10 yet..

Hmm..

Ever since .. ever, I am in no mood to blog. .__. My chest hurts, my eyes are irritating and my head is spinning. YAY.

What to do.. what to do..
All alone in the house.. ~_~ HELP!!

Someone. Please. Or I'm going to commit .. whatever I am allowed to. @__@

*rubs her eyes* Sleepy but I dont wanna get off the laptop. Not yet. Not until I talk to Irene-san. n___n

Hmmm... I better stop here.
I hope everyone's feeling better than I am.
*sees a spider next to the laptop* o_O;;

WICKED.

For all you HSM haters, I hate you too ^_^

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me
(now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing)
wherever we go next

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning
the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance? (can I have this dance?)
Can I have this dance?

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you threw it all
And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is)
wherever you are

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning
the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance? (can I have this dance?)
Can I have this dance?

Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be
Ooooooh!

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning
the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance? (can I have this dance?)
Can I have this dance?Can I have this dance?
Can I have this dance?

Hmmm... lovely song~
I dont care what you think, I'm anything you want me to be.
I'm anything she's not but.. I don't even care.
I just want to be with you..
Right here, right now.

Until the day I die..~ The story of the year

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die too
I'd die too


You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does


We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you

We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die too
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you

We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
And do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
Yeah do you need this as bad as I do? (Until the day I die)
Yeah do you need this as bad as I do, as I do? (Until the day I die)

I know. But this song.. reminds me of him.

Unknown.

I just want to say.. I AM really upset about having to leave next year. Not happy with the upcoming holidays either.. Staying home.. And Dad's visiting Alya on 5th December, or so he told me.
I wonder if he knows..-

And for all unknown reasons, I get upset a lot lately. Maybe the stress.. what, though? Depression.. is a funny word. Irony.. lurks around a lot, doesnt it?

And... my chest hurts. Preferably a lot, often, too. Dont know what should.. MAY trigger it.
I still need to decide.. Keep or not? Airi-san had told me to decide what seemed more rational to me. After ALL, he didnt HURT me. Well, she's right. HE didnt. Not even once.

Perhaps.. I should just stop thinking. For a moment and relax.. Easier said than done. Shiteness.

Hmmm, I suddenly am in need of a HUMAN company.. Tough.

Well, I need to..-

Hold on, I have finished New Moon faster than you had expected. Bella.. Or shall I say Isabella Marie Swan... is a lot like the old me. Only FAR more extreme. And I DO NOT go trying to kill myself.. well, technically. I DID have thoughts, I admit it. You win, Ira.


And... GUESS WHAT. I have a bag full of goodies from today's presents. YAY.

RE: Hey...

YAY. Finally, I am able to get on. ._. I missed CHUUU! Even Sunshine sometimes, we hugged all night long. Or at least I tried to. T-T He's like no more than my palm, so small for a Teddy. .-.;

Yup, hah. How ironic, aint it? You come and go.. too much. Why cant you ever STAY for a change.. I HATE IT!! T__T


But Whatever. .___. So tired of hating and arguing.. Just live life like a rolling pin. ^_^;
Though.. I wonder how. o-O; xD I miss Mr. Hughes. BADLY. -_- I need someone to pick on me... Oh yeah, it reminds me of what happened yesterday.

This girl whom I met.. like only several time asked me if I was with Faizzudin. o-o YESH, the guy who has that kawaii smile. o//o



xD Yeah I know, that was severally odd.




Well, me have to go. ._. I'll be sure to keep my phone charged so.. call! .-. But you should know that I just might not pick if my mood is bad. Like right NOW. Buh-byes~

Hey...

Bah, Yo. Seems you are keeping my.. commandment under control, eh? Good girl. ^-^; Well, me ish a bit buseh nowadays. Exams.. ect. Or is it etc?? xD Nvm darling.

Just wondering.. where have you been?! I cant reach ya, nor do you take my calls. -__- EBIL!

Haha, very funneh. Playing around with Marky? What did you tell him! Wait, nvm that. xP

Hmm.. g2g. See ya.. some time?

Yours lovingly.